The Holidays

The Holidays are officially...OVER!  Over the holidays my life was changed.  I got in a car accident (see below at other post) and due to that I recommitted my life to Christ.  This might sound weird to y'all but when the whole accident happened I could feel God there helping me.  Protecting me.  Supporting me.  Now how are things going to be different this time? I committed my life to Christ about a year ago, but never fully lived it out.  Now however I am changed.  I am reading my bible to understand the word of God better, I'm praying again and I am showing my faith again.  I was ashamed of my faith before, but now, I'm a Jesus Freak and proud of it!  I have to be very careful and choose who I hang out with wisely because I don't want a bad situation to happen where I'm in a sticky spot.  There is hope
Keep posted
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Talking to Health Classes

I'm a little late, but I'm still going to blog about it :)
I talked to my school health classes in the beginning of december.  It went surprisingly well!  I got a couple messages from people and a couple girls came up to me after class.  I am so proud of myself and thankful that God gave me the strength to talk to my peers about my story <3
Thanks to everyone

Merry Christmas!

As the date explains, its Christmas.  My dad has been saying all month
"Christmas is all exciting, and unless your five, you get disappointed because all  of the expectations you had for christmas didn't come true, because peoples expectations are unreal."
You know what I think?  I don't care if there is no snow or if I didn't get the most presents.  I am thankful. Thankful that I am alive and healthy.  Thankful that I have a family who loves me and most importantly thankful that life's good!  I sometimes get so caught up in the moment that I forget that I am so lucky!  God has been so good to me and I take that for granted.  I have lost my relationship with Christ and well, I have renewed it.  I am proud to call myself a christian and a Jesus Freak!

Love <3

Life gets put inperspective

I don't remember most of it. It all happened so fast, but I'll try to explain. I came from Huntington learning center. It was my mom, my grandma and I in the car. We just dropped off my grandma and werent more than a block away when we past the gas station with a car going at least 40 mph...if not more. I looked back at my mom and said "wow that looks dangerous." right then we started to turn the corner and they ram into the side I was on. Since we just dropped my grandma off I was in the back seat instead of the frount, where I usually am. We got the license plate and called 911. Instantly my back started to hurt, but I thought it was shock...so I said I didn't need an ambulance. My moms fine. Our cars a mess. There were these great lovely people who let me go in their house and keep warm. They were angels. The next day I went to the doctor to get my back looked at. Turns our, I sprained my back with bruised muscles. I take a muscle relaxant and have to do exercises along with occasionally wearing a brace.
The weird thing is...4 hours before the accident I had a huge meltdown due to struggling with Ed. I mentioned I wanted to die. Fastforward 4 hours and I almost do die. How scary! I've been taking life for granted! Things like this could happen any minute of any day! Every day is a gift!
Angels were watching over me and God protected me.

Dream

I had a dream
long long ago
to walk down the aisle
look out and see snow
a winter wedding
with red bridesmaids dresses
and show every one
the love that possess
our love so strong
so real and true
its just us now
just me and you
 

The Can Do attitude

I have been so motivated today.  I made a little "helpful tips" booklet, and Im making a "go to" binder.  In this binder I have all the tools I have learned from treatment such as...
1.  my booklet I made
2.  food logs
3.  mood logs
4.  risky situation planner
5. goal setting worksheet
6.  distorted thinking worksheet

I got a lot of these templates from this site.

http://www.oaktrees.org/blog/eating-disorder-worksheets

Make a 'go to' binder and use it! :)

there is hope <3

How was your thanksgiving?

What are you thankful for?
For me, the list could go on. I'm thankful for my family and friends. That I have food and shelter. I'm healthy and life is good!