My Testimony

I was born into a Catholic family of 5.  I was raised going to church every sunday. My parents thought they were pressuring us to much and decided it would be best for us to find our faith on our own.  I though this was GREAT, after all, I hated going to church.  I never had a relationship with Jesus and didn't ever think I would.  The summer going into 7th grade and during 7th grade was a terrible dark period of my life.  I started to get really insecure about my body.  I new the only way I would ever get a guy was if I had lost some weight.  So,  I started a to eat less and exercise more.  By about january of my 7th grade year I was burning 700 calories while only eating 30.  I was underweight but I wasn't skeletal, so I though I was fine.  I ended up getting treatment at Rogers  Memorial Hospital that march.  There we had spirituality classes.  They were relaxing and all but I never actually new what that was all about.  I was discharged a month later.  That summer I started a new behavior.  Purging.  Everything I ate I would throw up afterwords.  I was then Hospitalized again in October, and again the next march.  Every time I went to Rogers I got more and more familiar with the spirituality class.  By the time I got discharged the last time I was thinking this Being a Christian stuff was pretty cool.   Meanwhile I started hanging out with my wonderful friends more often.  I started asking questions about what I means to be a christian.  I also started going to our school bible study Friday mornings.  Wouldn't it be cool to know you always have someone to lean on?  That they think your beautiful just the way you are?  Guess what?  I found that.  One of my favorite bible verses is 1 Peter 3:3.  It says 3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.  This verse means a lot to me.  It shows that God loves me and made me in His image.  In February of 2011 I asked Jesus to forgive my sins.  I know that I am a sinner and I will never be good enough for God.  But since Jesus lived a perfect life, I am now free. In Isaiah 41:10 it says ‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’  Since I have been saved I no longer worry about who is out there that will love me.  I know that God loves me just the way I am.  Im not saying once your saved your life is easy.  I still struggle.  But I know God is always on my side.


baptized on May 8th 2011 <3