Friends

I am so lucky I have the friends I do.  Yesterday, I was talking to my one friend.  Actually, I was more like venting.
I know that I will never be good enough for God.  But I also know that thats where Jesus comes in.  He died and my sins were forgiven and Gods love is a free gift.  I cant even explain how that makes me feel.  I am so blessed.  I truly believe that God gave me another chance--Heres some background:
I was born with JRA.  We did not know until I was 15 months old and my leg was all swollen.  My parents took me to the ER and after a long time of waiting I was diagnosed with Arthritis.  Basically I've been in pain my whole life.  Going into 7th grade I started eating less and exercising more.  Burning 700 calories while only eating 30.  I was underweight but I wasn't skeletal BUT my organs were failing.  I went to the doctor and was informed that if I did any exercise..even walking, I would go into cardiac arrest and eventually die.  I was then transported to Rogers Memorial  Hospital and put on a feeding tube without even being there for an hour.  I was put on suicidal watch and discharged a month later.  5 months after I was discharged I was hospitalized twice again for bulimia.  Long story short.  I literally almost died.  But why didn't I?
God had/has great plans for my life.  Dying wasn't one of them.  So He had the power to keep me strong and alive.
Now I am growing so much in my faith and show that by everything I do.
God has plans for you--Let Him take control of your life :)